Dear Diary! I am on a downward spiral. LMAO I am out of fucking control, first of all. this is probably the most vulnerable video I've ever recorded in my entire 24yrs of life. the breakup was cute and all, but spiritual warfare is one thing? and financial insecurity is a whole fucking other.
dear diary, I'm acting fast…. LMAO but, basically me and this guy met at Bar Taco here in Nashville, and he was kind enough to pay for my friends and I'd entire table (we all had different tabs).. because found me to be striking and immediately captivating.. bc ofc. so he arranged dinner plans at Deacon's after I mentioned liking steak a lot.. (and that's funny af bc y'all know I just had an eating disorder, I'd barely finish a plate of food lmaooooooo).
Dear Diary - I am still acting a fool, but at least I get into the word first. 😭
Dear Diary, I think I'm healing?????
these are the passages mentioned in the video, and what I took from them: 2 Kings 9:18--24
The story of Jehu and Jezebel serves as a 2026 reminder that true peace often requires the furious and decisive removal of toxic cycles or pretenses that no longer serve your higher purpose.
Isaiah 9:2–10 This scripture prophesies a transition from oppression and "darkness" to the birth of a peaceful leader who replaces chaos with divine order. In an era of digital noise and global uncertainty, this serves as a reminder that internal peace and clarity can still be found even when the external world feels like the shadow of death.
Ezra 8:22–23 Ezra chooses to rely on prayer and fasting for protection during a dangerous journey rather than asking a king for a military escort, proving that faith is a practical security measure. This highlights the value of "spiritual preparation" over purely material safeguards, suggesting that when you commit to a new path or "journey," grounding yourself in your values and faith provides a protection that money or status cannot buy!!
Genesis 22:17 God promises Abraham that his legacy will be immeasurable and that his descendants will possess the "gate of his enemies," signifying total victory and influence - after asking him to sacrifice his most prized possession. This speaks to the power of legacy, sacrifice, and mindset; it suggests that with persistence and divine favor, you can overcome systemic barriers and see your personal or professional influence multiply beyond what you initially imagined. (this one is lowk my fav)
𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘀𝘂𝗯𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗶𝗯𝗲 𝘴𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝗗𝗟𝗛𝗦𝗘 💕 ___________________ 𝙇𝙚𝙩'𝙨 𝘾𝙤𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙘𝙩! 😍 𝘝𝘐𝘚𝘐𝘛 𝘔𝘠 𝘞𝘌𝘉𝘚𝘐𝘛𝘌 𝘍𝘖𝘙 𝘔𝘠 "𝘎𝘐𝘙𝘓 𝘛𝘈𝘓𝘒" - 𝘉𝘓𝘖𝘎 𝘗𝘖𝘚𝘛𝘚 + 𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘱𝘰, 𝘷𝘪𝘴𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘴, 𝘧𝘢𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘰𝘯 & 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘶𝘱 ᥫ᭡.
tbh, I don't have anything to say for myself besides I love rekindling old relationships 😂 this is old news anyway, but it happened so... I am definitely currently living my karma for even allowing this to happen, so fret not. trust, god got me in refinement rn .
this isn't just a life update or breakup story; it’s a testimony of how God pulled me out of desolate place and stopped me from literally ruining my life .
˚ʚ ᗢ₊ the scriptures that sustained me most 🎀 ˚✧ ﾟ. Ephesians 4:29 "Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers."
all ima say is, don't start none? won't mfn be none (.) 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘀𝘂𝗯𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗶𝗯𝗲 𝘴𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝗗𝗟𝗛𝗦𝗘 💕
the grain was gripped, I moved into my first apartment, all on my own! I got my keys 8 days before my 24th birthday, and baby all glory to God!! everything happened in divine timing, I am so blessed and so grateful. I am extremely happy and in better spirits since getting away from that lame ass ho. and… more to come. 😂 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘀𝘂𝗯𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗶𝗯𝗲 𝘴𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝗗𝗟𝗛𝗦𝗘 💕
✨this is the rant ✨ lots of redundancy, lots of rage, lots of tears.. the usual. the link to my most recent blog post: https://www.madebydlfce.com/thediarypost/dolldaily-exclusive-spiritualsalvation It is paywalled obv, but if you're a Doll just wanting to read, connect, or relate - 🎀 DM me "NEW START" on Instagram to receive the access code for 100% free entry into my diary.
In this video, I pretty much went through the hardest motions… I was so sad, I was in pain, I was grieving! This was pretty much the thick of it, where I needed to be thinking of solutions but decided to be focused on my feelings instead. I was super sad, super betrayed, but at least I kept my hands to myself and kept myself sane. I am lowkey embarrassed but it happened and I felt compelled to post it - so here I am . 🎀 I'll try to post every Friday. 🦋
For my bff Katie’s 23rd Birthday , we all met up in Vegas ! 💖 it was chaotic, drama, and so fucking fun. missing my gals 4evs. 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘀𝘂𝗯𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗶𝗯𝗲 𝘴𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝗗𝗟𝗛𝗦𝗘 💕
don't feel like typing a description. it's February 1st - so im feeling very unorthodox , enjoy . 🌚 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘀𝘂𝗯𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗶𝗯𝗲 𝘴𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝗗𝗟𝗛𝗦𝗘 💕 ___________________ 𝙇𝙚𝙩'𝙨 𝘾𝙤𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙘𝙩! 😍 𝘝𝘐𝘚𝘐𝘛 𝘔𝘠 𝘞𝘌𝘉𝘚𝘐𝘛𝘌 𝘍𝘖𝘙 𝘔𝘠 "𝘎𝘐𝘙𝘓 𝘛𝘈𝘓𝘒" 𝘉𝘓𝘖𝘎 𝘗𝘖𝘚𝘛𝘚
𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘱𝘰, 𝘷𝘪𝘴𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘴, 𝘧𝘢𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘰𝘯 & 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘶𝘱 ᥫ᭡.
Hi Dollface, Pt.2 of the process of us finding a lil crib in Portland, moving from Corvallis, Oregon. It's like 50/50 Bitter and Sweet, because Corvallis is junk , but so is the apartment we're moving to? so I was annoyed and uncooperative the entire time. Enjoy :) 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘀𝘂𝗯𝘀𝗰𝗿𝗶𝗯𝗲 𝘴𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝗗𝗟𝗛𝗦𝗘 💕
